Sam & Whiskey

Weeks end and I have finished Sam! He is submitted to the Walmart Project to be considered for the mural in a local store! Fingers crossed that my art gets to live there soon! It always seems to take me a bit when I go back to a unfinished drawing. Once I shook out the cobwebs I was able to immerse myself back into it.

I also had the chance to get the reference photos for my 10 Whiskies series this weekend. Below are the photos I have narrowed it down to. I will begin with the first one on Monday and hope to complete each one within a weeks time. I’ll be doing time lapse videos as well to show my process with this project! Some of these bottles are going to test my skills for sure but, I’m always up for a good challenge! 😉

The way I look at creating art is just like the precision in geometry. It’s all just perfect measurements and shades of color. Compartmentalize each shape and focus on precision then the rest is cake! A drawing can be daunting for me if I look at it any other way. If shapes and colors are arranged perfectly you can draw anything you want.

It’s not about drawing what your minds thinks a object looks like. It’s how the light plays with the shapes and what you are actually seeing with your eyes.

What you see may not be the perfect shape of a bottle but, the reflections and background all effect how 3 dimensional an object looks on a 2 dimensional surface. Draw what you see not what you think! Anyway, enough of my infinite wisdom..lol! I will keep y’all posted on my progress this next week and hopefully have a great video to share!

Studio Drawings / W.I.P

This week starts with the intent to have a good idea on what whiskey bottles I want to draw, as well as, work on some unfinished pieces that have been collecting dust in the studio.

I started with a portrait drawing of Josh. With it I wanted to explore a little bit more of an abstract portrait with high contrast. The black paper and white chalk was the perfect combination to do a portrait of him with smoke wafting around his profile. I loved the way it played into the curls of his beard as well. I’m happy with how it turned out.

Next, unfinished project is a portrait of Sam Walton. Feeling my strong sense of community and culture with this one. There is a deadline for a mural project Walmart has opened to the public on January 11th. Thanks to all my peeps who have been tagging me for this project! Crossing my fingers I’ll get choosen! I thought this would be the perfect time to finish and submit it for a chance to have my art, blown up mural sized, in a store! It is a charcoal/pencil drawing on paper. I have pulled it out a few times to work on it over the last year but, have yet to fully complete it. I’m working out the details and doing final touches.

This will be my main focus until the weekend when I’ve scheduled to do the photoshoot of the whiskey collection. I plan on taking loads of photos and choose the best 10 to draw from. The drawings will all be the same dimensions and I will be challenging myself to finish one drawing per week. If I stay on track it will take me two and a half months to complete the 10 Whiskies! I’m thinking I might be doing time lapse videos of each drawing as well! I’ve always wanted to do a video start to finish.

2020 Art Goals

Happy 2020 y’all!!! I am beginning this year busier than ever! I love being busy. It keeps me super motivated to do more and accomplish all my goals! I’ve decided that this year I am going to create much MUCH more art!! I wrote up a list of projects and ideas I’ve been wanting to do forever. I have a tendency to procrastinate in literally every aspect of my life. Excuses like “I don’t have time….and I’m just too tired….” will deter me no longer! I am my own worst enemy sometimes but, this year I am deciding to be fearless. Stop self doubting and start using positivity to propel my creativity.

2020 Art Goals!

*10 Whiskies

*Dead Celebrities -The Face of Depression

*Work on completing all unfinished works

*The Gold Project

*Sculptural Color

I will divulge more details about each project as I go. It’s not a long list but, it’s ALOT of work and plenty to keep me going all year! I will probably work on several at a time to keep from getting burnt out on one particular subject matter.

First project on the agenda is a series of 10 charcoal whiskey bottle drawings. I’ve been wanting to do it for ages and now is the time! I’ve done a few as commission pieces in the past and get asked about them often. I thought it would be the perfect way to start my 2020 art journey. I’ll post and share the progress on how it is going so, y’all can follow along if ya like!

A dear friend of mine has a wonderful collection of whiskies that he is willing to let me photograph. Which, will be perfect for reference!! I also think I would benefit greatly by tasting them but, pregnancy is telling me otherwise…😒😁

So, now I am looking into which bottles I want to draw and learning a bit of history on each as well. The history is what fascinates me and I know it will keep me interested in the project.

Here’s to a year and pushing myself harder to be more creatively productive! What is a goal you have for 2020?! I hope it involves creating more happiness in your life. When you’re happy it can’t help but seep into others! Spread the happiness, spread the creativity and let’s make it a wonderful year together!!

Self Love

Once again a restless night. Haunted by the dread of disappointment, anger, and hopelessness. When will I stop hoping for a different outcome? When will I look into your eyes and not see sorrow? Will I ever have you back?

I fear for you in the realist way my heart can feel. I know you’re scared and lost. I know you don’t want to be like this. Yet, I hold your hand begging and pleading and all I see is emptiness in your eyes. Complete abandon. I’m scared for me too. Terrified I’ll end up the same. It’s in my blood. Coursing through my veins just waiting until I’m weak enough to let the demon take control.

I don’t want to be this. I don’t want to watch this. I don’t want to lose anymore. Haven’t we all lost enough? I can’t save you. Hope is always my greatest heartbreak. I remember the way you were and physically hurt from the pain of losing that version of you. The only love great enough to save someone is self love.

A Year of Growth for the Kitterman’s!!!

2019 has been massive for our family and turned our lives inside out! I couldn’t be more excited!

Starting with our surprise announcement of baby number 3 on the way! I was so sure I didn’t want more children. I was completely happy to have Abby and Asher. Yet, as I’ve gotten older I began to feel differently. The beauty that our babies bring into this world is beyond anything I could ever have imagined. I felt that adding to our family would only bring more love!! And why would we not want that?!

Growing our family felt right. So, my husband and I discussed it for quite awhile and decided now would be the best time. Once I became pregnant I immediately knew! Seasoned moms have this sixth sense about these things! Lol! For this reason I’ve had the “pleasure” of enjoying every single exaggerated symptom of being pregnant with our third child. It hasn’t been the easiest but, we’re making it through. Baby A is healthy and that makes me happy. My husband, Josh and our kiddos are so excited and have been angels in helping me with everything I need. I am into the second trimester and can’t wait to see if we will have a boy or girl! We may or may not already have names picked out! 😉

The other milestone reached this year has been starting a business! Josh has relentlessly pursued his dream and it has shown to be worth all the blood, sweat, and tears put forth. I have stood beside him believing in his vision, pushing him and tugging him when needed but, always knowing he would do amazingly. A decade long dream has finally materialized into the Spud Doctors food truck! Josh, with his business partner Mark, are taking our little country community by storm!

My husband is a chef at his core. There is nothing that makes him happier than feeding people. It’s the way he loves and it shows 100% in his food. He effortlessly makes a dish and watches me eat it with the biggest smile in his face knowing there is nothing I love more. That kind of love isn’t taught or achieved through time. It is just in him. It’s who he is.

Seeing him grow as a person and as a business owner this last year has given me such a huge level of respect for him. I will support him in all he wants to do and help in every way I can to aid in his success!

There is no doubt 2020 will be crazy but, I’ve never been more excited for a new year and new challenges!

Psst….a second food truck could possibly be in the works! 😉 …sssshhhhh though! No announcement of that just yet.

So what do ya say, wanna change the world today?!

Perspective is nothing if not life changing, a fundamental shift in the train of thought that you base your values on. As I get older I am embracing new perspective more and more. I crave it. I want my mind changed. I want to grow. I want to understand more and see the world through eyes that are not mine.

I feel that there is a rising up of new thinking that creates more inclusivity within society. People are not afraid to stand up. The time is always ‘now’ for the forward thinkers. The people that say, “If I’m not the voice then there is no voice. If I don’t make change for the future thinkers of the world then we will never change.”

I want to be part of change. I want to say I made a difference to a better world. A world where more people are letting other perspectives influence their thoughts and actions. Having the openness to not being right all the time. Believing that there is always a way of doing something that has never been thought of.

Supporting those that are brave, especially if what they represent is a perspective that eyes have never seen, is all about opening your heart to others. Vulnerability is always seen as a bad thing. A thing that makes someone weak but, vulnerability is what changes the world. It’s that one person standing up to say “I think, feel, or want things to be different and here’s why. Let’s find ways together to make it so.”

These brave people and those who support them are my heroes. It simply starts with listening. Truly listen to what others have to say. So what do ya say, wanna change the world today?!

My Truest Friend

“Don’t walk behind me; I may not lead.
Don’t walk in front of me; I may not follow.
Walk beside me; and be my friend.” -Albert Camus

We haven’t always been this way. We have seen both sides of the path we promised to walk together. Many times I’ve searched for your hand knowing you needed mine more. Struggling to understand how to be there for you when I barely managed to be there for myself.

I’ve realized that in this journey we have vowed to take together there are three parts. The us part, the me part, and the you part. We are not always on the us part. We have our own journeys to take as we navigate life.

We promise to always be strong and always be the “perfect” support. Life doesn’t go that way. Love rarely knows what to do in the times that we don’t seem to walk the path hand in hand.

Slowly with time, I’ve learned to not fret when we aren’t in sync. To have patience and always tell you how I feel. I’ve learned that being on a pedestal is so very lonely. When you step up to hold my hand it’s the best feeling in the world. We always find our pace again. I grab your hand and we are us. You are my best friend and I love you so very much ❤